there is always a rainbow after the rain (:

this entry is to someone .
want to read then dont dulan :x
first, I didint want to start this .
&& hello ? I was working lahh . how am I suppose to come out ?
and I've already told you at the beginning .
the second time I met you was my half hour break time .
you want me to sacrifice my break time is it ?
I didint act like I dont know you .
I didint know is was you at first , then xiaowei told me .
something bad happen , and you lefted .
I didint have the time to say anything .
dont believe ask xiaowei , I was so worry that you will be mad at me .
and there it goes , you do hate me .
you ask all my friends there , they keep asking why .
&& I keep repeating " die lah , she sure angry me adi "
like a billion - zillion times !
I'll never grow up , I am still a kid .
I said I feel like suiciding , but I didint do it .
&& I quit cutting myself like how many years old already .
pls do not judge me, cause you aint 100% perfect too .
I cant stand the pressure , is my problem .
you dont even know how much pressure I'm going through
so you cant say anything about me .
whatever lahh , what is done it's already done .
so if you are still mad , go ahead .
there's nothing much I can say about it .
explaining is just a waste of time .
when somebody hates you , you can never change that .
well , all I can do is apologize .
and yeah , I know "It's to late to apologize" right ?
accept or not is your decision . I'll accept it .
just wanna say I'm not holding any grudge against anybody .
if you think being in the same class with me is uncomfortable .
I will try my best to change class , alrights ?
if isnt okay then do you want me to change school also ?
or maybe shift house ? move to another state ?
or even migrate to another country ?
then you dont have to see my face anymore .
so , have a goodnight everybody , tmr will be supa great day for me !
wish me all the best . gahh , I'm just a pile of shit .