Black and white , ♥

My post's title means something (:
my day is black and white , you figure the meaning yourself .

Today , wake up late due to the tiredness D:
early morning got nagged by my mummy .
woke up , ate brunch , do the laundry and stuff .
sat infront of the computer , staring at it for hours .
done some photoshop-ing and searching for new graphics .

Mum called ask me to get ready for dinner ,
which she didint tell me earlier , have to rush and get ready .
mum came back and nagged at me again , I dont know about the dinner .
but she blame me again , it was not my fault , seriously /:
reached there , everyone kinda ditched me , mood was down D:
uncle messed up my hair , mood was not great .
while fixing my hair , got screwed by mum for playing with my hair .
I suddenly , broke down and cry silently , I was super not in a mood .
my cousin sister realize it and she came and talk to me .
later , was recover again , started to talk with others .

Went yumcha at the Eye of Malaysia , Titiwangsa .
my brother drove us there to meet my uncle .
my uncle is the working as the organizer or something like that there .
went and sat the wheel again , yes , again :D
we sat the VIP one , walk VIP lane somemore .
the VIP costs RM200 per ride , but we got it for free ;DD
who wanna go ? I can bring you along also .
if you treat me very good , you can sit in the VIP for free ,
but sadly , is going to move to Melacca soon .
the residents there dont like the wheel so they have to move it .
everyone was staring at us , hahas ;D we are soooo lucky .
OMG , I looked like I'm bragging about this , sorry for that :x
is very dark , and my phone camera is so lousy .
manage to get few pictures , but took some with my brother's phone .
will post later , the pictures are in my brother's phone .

The wheels from the back , infront of the controlling room :D
everyone is lining up for their turn infront , we just wait for the VIP at the back

In the wheel , we was cam-whoring non stop :D
keep playing with the TV inside the wheel , cause keep repeating the same song .
so annoying , so we shut the TV then we on it back again .
we was watching the video clip but not enjoying the view .
was making jokes out of the clip , laugh sooo much ;p

Went yumcha at the Eyecafe , uncle treat us drinks and food .
he is soooo good man , ordered popcorn and french fries for us .
then we talk a lot about the events he is organizing .
maybe we get to go to Eason Chen's concert also ;p
he say want to bring to the studio , Astro is doing a show there .
so we can see how they film the show and stuff ;D
so great right ? my uncles is the world most greatest uncles of all .
after that , wanted to go karaoke but tmrw have to go jogging .
so we cancel our plans and go back homeee ;D

My mood is kinda down right now, not feeling great .
something just kills me from the inside , ripping my heart apart .
this just dont feels right , I think I have moodswings again .
thanks to that somebody , I gave my everything and all I get is nothing .
life is suppose to be unfair , rights ? oh shitty D:
I think I wanna give up , I feel so crappy now .
I have wasted all my time and effort on something stupid .
I tried my best to break down this wall .
but it is no use , what is already done is done .
how much effort and energy you put in to break it down
it wont , it will just break you into a million pieces .
I'm so stupid , I'm so dumb to even realize that .
I will give up all my hopes and dreams for now .
goodbye , I will not tolerate no more D: watch me .