goshh ! i never hated myself this much .

oh god . school's back D:
and yeshhh ! I got into science class .
congrats me . It's gonna be so hard for me .
with all the homeworks and etc .
wish me luck (: hope I can go through everything .
I'm in the different class with my ex classmates .
cause I dropped my chinese .
and guess what ? I'm in the same class with XXX .
okays , she hates me a lot , I know .
and I dont know why she hates me .
damn fcuked up . you damn ridiculous lahh !
just because I didint reply your msg and bumped into you at Kim Gary .
you have to be mad at me . you very free is it ?
fine ! If you wanna continue to be mad at me . go ahead !
having a lot of pressure now . my mood is so down right now .
tears dropping like pipe water . feel like cutting my hand .
I think I wanna suicide . I cant take it anymore .
everyday is like hell to me . I cant take the pain anymore .
just hope tmr someone will stab me with a knife and rob my money .
then I will die & leave in peace .
ohh yea , && broke up with lala alrdy .
so much problems coming at the same time . how much can I take ?
I dont belong to this world , I should leave .
no use for me to stay here any longer . just wasting ppl's time .
if you think I'm dumb and stupid , yea , perhaps I am .
you can say I'm wasting my mother's time for bringing me up .
but you are not in my position . you dont understand my condition .
you dont know what I'm going through .
I need a shoulder to cry on right now , god , pls send me one (:
nothing much to say , goodbye *