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Currently listening: Walk away - Paula Deanda.
its old. I know lah [: but its nice ok?

today was a bad day
my life is turning back into darkness again
friendship dont remains forever
some of them are smart
they slowly take a step behind everytime you dont notice them
&& when you finally knew it, its gone.
I'm feeling so down right now, just wish someone would call me
someone who cared about me, but it will never come true
my tummy hurts right now, I think I'm hungry but I refuse to eat
I feel like my gastric is coming back
the pain is like my heart is on fire.
it hurts a lot, but I cant eat
I wanna loose weight, my mind is telling me not to eat
rahh! just forget about it, it doesnt matter anyway.
my msn got problem again, I cant seem to sign in.
right now, I just wish someone would msg me or what.
have no close friends right now.
no more people talking to me on the phone for hours.
why some people get rid of thier friends?
it feels like that person are using me
or treating me like a toy
&& abandoned me when he/she used finish
is this the true meaning of friends?
ever since I study in secondary school
I totally forgot about the true meaning of friends
it is like someone brainwash me or something.
cause in secondary school, friends are those who mix with you
they are those people who are close to you
&& they backstab you, judge you
tell lies about you, spead rumors, etc.
these are friends (:
even my own cousin does that to me
what is friends? what is family?
I really dont understand the meaning right now.
my life is in total messed, its all tangled up.
and everytime you put your trust on someone
they would disappoint you, they hurt you, and they wont care.

in a very bad mood right now.
today is so screwed up.
fought with a lot of ppl
my leg is now swallon, thanks to the machince.
it dropped on my leg yesterday T.T
tomorrow going TimeSquare with mico baby.
hope everything goes fine.

*life is like a walking shadow